I Can Never Feel Poem by Jackie Oakden

the sun is up on this morning
its rising and its glowing
waiting for another day
to pass by today

this day should be a cloudy one
so i can stay inside and dont run
i try my best to stay away from my gun
but i know that today wont be fun

should i stay away from this moment forever
of sadness and despair
for now i know that it will never
it will never be fair
so ive learned that love isnt real
because the holes in my heart wont heal
happiness is like my enemy
its the emotion i can never feel
i can never feel

set me free ill be good
ill just have to change my mood
i know that i should i would
be happy if i could

the next life is my second chance
to get away from this life long dance
it wont end it keeps on going
sadness is like my friend
it sticks with me it is still growing

this life has been locked up in a box
all around it are 50 combo locks
i cant escape this so sick lifestyle
i guess ill sit and think for a while

i think i must be dreaming
shes in pain but i cant hear her screaming
im not sure if its fake or real
it is something i can never feel