I Can'T Tell You. Poem by Emily Reid

I still yearn for the feeling of his touch,
and currently I'm just asking myself if I want too much
because seems like my wish shall not be granted,
since even if he's so far away I still feel dazzled and enchanted.
And he may not know this, but he's always on my mind
and I'm too afraid to tell him of my feelings, afraid of what reaction I'll find.
I can't decide what i feel, is it love or fright,
I just know one thing for sure - he's the first thing on my mind at night.
I mean, I wish I can tell him how much about him I care,
but I guess I'm just too afraid to, so I just sit back and stare.
And every time I see him, in my heart I feel pain,
I feel like if I don't tell him, I'll probably go insane.
What holds me back, i don't really know,
well, maybe it's because my feelings I can't freely express and show?
I feel like he's so close to me yet not there,
I feel he knows about my feelings since he asks, yet still not aware
Somehow he found his way into my heart
and when he doesn't talk to me and look my heart, I feel torn apart.
Honestly, sometimes he makes me feel so confused,
but I know one thing - I just want him to mend my heart bruised
Oh, and now I remember the first day that we met,
I remember how I didn't like him and I thought he was a threat,
but how can I hate someone like him, I mean, he said sorry,
and from that moment on for destiny I didn't worry
So he may not know that this poem's about him,
but let me tell you that he's in my world the light dim.
And now I'll just say 'I love you',
and when he asks for who I wrote this I'll just say it was true...
Yet I won't have the heart to confess that for him it was,
Why? I'm a coward. Or well, just because.
And now, one more 'I love you with all of my heart',
and I just with that him and I will never part; 3
And that one day I'll have the courage the truth to say
and actually ask him how in my heart he found his way.