Emily Reid

Rookie (Aspen, CO)

I Can'T Believe - Poem by Emily Reid

I can't believe
It's been 8 months
And I still cry when I read
The chats and the letters.
I still cry when i remember
Being held tight because you didn't want to leave,
Not just yet.

I still cry
When I remember you calling me as soon as you got home
Saying you already missed me.
I still cry
When you treat me like one of the guys.
Because I know
That no relationship
Will compare to ours
And no heartache will compare
To mine

Thanks for breaking my heart.
And thanks for the nights i spent awake with a razor blade to my skin wishing you would see how badly I needed you
Just to stay sane.
Just to feel safe.
Instead I hold tight to the flashy hug of the razor
As it pulls at my skin.

And I secretly hope that one day
I'll accidentally cut deep enough to end
All of this.
Because it's too much.
And all your fault.
All your fault I cut
And Tried to kill myself.
All your fault the only other guy I acctually liked
Was a player.
All your fault I set myself up to be hurt.
Because my heart can't be broken
If it hasn't been whole
Since January 15th,2010.

Comments about I Can'T Believe by Emily Reid

  • (8/18/2010 3:22:00 PM)

    love your poem very touching but i hope its not true (Report) Reply

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Poem Submitted: Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Poem Edited: Friday, September 9, 2011

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