I Could Spend My Days Poem by Rachel BaByBeAr Anderson

I could spend my days staring at your photo
crying hard when i remember me and you
body shaking till there's nothing left to do
i had waitied so long to tell you those words
the three little words that changed our worlds
its such a shame, a shame a shame
i never thought i'd get the chance to be with someone like you
never thought anyone could capture my heart the way you do
i always thought i'd be on my own in this life
but being with you, it was nice
Now i could spend my days ripping myself apart
trying desperately to carve myself a new heart
but i know thats not what you would have wanted
And i could look at myself in the mirror and not recognise
wouldnt notice the girl staring back with those dark set eyes
this isnt what you'd have wanted
But i cant just go on and forget everything again
i dont want to give it all up and go crying to my friends
i never wanted it to be this way
i just needed you, i knew you felt the same
But now im spending my days completely alone
no songs no touch no time no tone
sketching our memories into tight ribbons in the dark
stretching and tying them across my weakening heart
barding anyone from entering it again and locking you safe inside
tearing my soul apart just to keep you mine