I Deserve The Worst. Poem by Evelina kononenko

He left me, i guess i deserved it.
Im hated, i must of deserved that.

I feel so alone having no-one understand me.
I have no strength to speak but to only cry.

Im done, im done for good.

My hearts to shattered, all the pieces are lost.
No more of me.

None. Its just Done.

Theres no air for me, my heart is in flames.
Its just turning back and dusty.

Im tired of continuing this same road i keep risking to take.
Im done for good because i deserve the worst.

I want to be alone.
Never touched.
Never said.
Never told.

Ill never recover from something,
thats been bothering and shattering for years.

Because something like this is never forgotten.
Never healed.
Never mended.
But only deserved the worst.

Never will i let this come and break my life, it only leaves scars
everywhere for the rest of my days.

Im tired of faking those fake ugly smiles of mine,
pretending to be someone i will ever be.

Having to say your mended and never forgotten,
makes me the sinner of my lies.

Loosing everything that was so important in life to you,
Just cuts through my skin.

As i hear the raindrops pouring outside my window
i can relate there tears with mine,
they pour non stop, cold, and gloomy.

What will you understand reading this shameful un-useful poem?

I just hope to end all this,
and continue my road to life alone

Never touched and never mended.