I Hate Myself Poem by veronica jewell

I hate myself
I look in the mirror and start to cry
All I can see are the bad things I've done
People always tell me my faults
People keep their distance from me
They talk behind my back
I'm not perfect
I'm not even close
I'm bairly human
My problems are deeper than anyone can see
Yet still, to them, I am disgusting
Alcoholic
Over motional
Full of hatred
It's all inside me
I bite my lip and hide
I scare people with my outsides
How would you feel if I let you inside?
I am trash
I'm yours when you want me
Invisible when you don't
Few have loved me
The ones who did ran away bleeding
I smile on the outside
Though I wish you were dead
I want you to suffer
Just like me
I wish someone knew
But no one cares
They just pretend
And so do I
I pretend to be happy
If you try and get close
I'll push you away
No one deserves to feel the way I do
I refuse to punish you
Beat me
Scream at me
Punish me
Hate me
Just stay away from my heart
It can't handle your abuse
I'll pretend to be happy
You think you know me so well
I wish you could understand
I hate myself