I Hope I Am Delirious Poem by Tori Beals

I hope I am delirious
I wish it wasn't real
but the depression is so serious
I no longer want to feel
Flashbacks and memories
haunt me everyday
bringing back the tears
all my control was taken away
Hopeless and alone
I curl into a ball
just wanting to go home
if i had a home at all
The pure desperation
the panic and the terror
of his proclamation
that I am inferior
There was nothing I could do
but lay there and pray
that he wouldn't go to far
and take my innocence away