I Lied Poem by Heba Alshich

I've said many times I don't need you close 
I lied time over time my soul is just a lost soul 
Am over protective I know Nothing will change that
Nothing but you 

The way I am whenever you're around 
You have the laughing magic 
The way you make my knees melt to the ground 
I feel like forever pathetic 

I am afraid of loving you 
Am afraid of you not loving me back 
Of what my heart has to drag 
Its you whom I ever should thank
My heart ain't swag 
I can't live with that 

So I decided to be a fool
And pretend that I don't care 
I tried to be the friend you depend on 
But it wasn't fair
Those beats of that weak muscle 
Were stronger than ever 
I swear I never heard my heart beats 
Now I hear your name with every beat 
I am doom indeed 
Doomed by emotions i fought
Am not crazy 
But God had brought  
You to add to my life  the glow 

Yes I am forever scared 
I just need those 3 words 
The I the LoVe and the U 

In those hands o your lay the answer 
Love me, love me not, love me, love me not 
Had try to be better 
Without you, just in case