I Need To Be Free Poem by Toni Brwn

Grey skys covering my shine
You shaped clouds floating in my mind
Do you see the small things?
Or anything at all?
Do you see the pain?
Holding my heart
Is there any shame?

These lies are unforgotten
This deceit is unforgiven
That constant pain overtaking
My forsaken heart
Will be forever banked away
staining my fearful mind

what have you done?
How will i live?
With constant memory
Of this tragic crime?

Your face in my mind
Your pleasure stamped on my body
Like an invisible chain
Padlocked with your hands
Only unlocked with time.

I am young.
I cannot live.
I need to end this.
I need be free.
Leave me alone.
Don’t show your face.
It breaks my heart.
To hear your name.

Try and sleep?
Well i’d rather die
The memories
The pictures stapled to my mind
The unwanted thoughts
Stuck on you
Stuck on your fantasy
Stuck on what you did
How will i survive