I Prayed Poem by Ayesha Riaz

I prayed for all this to end.
I prayed all day,
I prayed all night,
But what happened in the end,
Was it all right?
Another day in tears,
Another night in fears,
For I failed another time,
Now let this all over,
Let my heart free,
Let my wounds heal,
Let it all over,
For I don’t want another failure,

I am tired,
Tired of tears,
Tired of fears,
Tired of despair,
Tired of this endless journey,
For I have waited longer than life,
They say: Everybody has to wait,
You are not the only one,

But it’s not more about waiting,
It’s more about the pain,
Rising in my veins,
Rising in my chest every day,
Erupting every moment,
It’s uncontrollable,
Unbearable,
The lava in me has burnt me,
The bacteria has left me plagued,
I know I need to wait,
But why me?
Who should I blame?
Myself?
For working harder every time,
Or my fate?
For the belief in tomorrow has died in me,
I prayed all day,
I prayed all night,
I prayed for all this to end,
But I am sorry not anymore,
The hope inside me is slowly vanishing,

Oh my lord I am waiting for a miracle now,
A miracle that could raise my soul again,
If this is a test of life,
Then I have already failed,
If this is living,
Then I am already dead.