I Pretend Poem by Heather Hill

I pretend that every thing's OK
when all I want to do is breakdown
why cant people take me for who I am
It shouldn't matter what you look like
What you want to do with your life
I pretend that I don't care what they say
but deep down I fall apart
it seems like I'm hated by the world
no where to go no where to hide
just holding my pillow tight
wanting this to disappear
why cant I live inside my dreams
where I can be myself
don't want to stay where I'm
not wanted
why do people judge me
if they don't know me
it just rips me in half
when they say things that
aren't true and it spreads everywhere
and your alone wanting to stay shut up
holding your pillow tight
with the music up
crying yourself to sleep
I pretend I'm OK but
I just want to fall apart


(8-9-06)