I say I don't want a relationship
I say I don't care about having sex
I say I'm happy with how I act
I say I'm completely over my ex
I say I'm happy with my life
I say I'm just having fun
I say I won't do it again
I say with you, I'm done
I say I think I like you
I say I don't care I'm being used
I say I'm going to change
I say I don't wanna be rescued
But how long can I live this lie?
How long can I lie to everyone else?
How long can I live with my indecency,
And pretend that I'm being myself?
Because now I do want a relationship
And I'm sick of having just sex
I'm not happy with how I act anymore
And I'm not completely over my ex
I'm not really happy with my life
And I'm not really having fun
I don't know if I'll do it again
And with you I still don't wanna be done
I don't really know if I like you
And I'm sick of being used
I don't know how to change
And I need to be rescued
It's all my fault
All of the above
Cause I have a problem
God please send me a white dove
I'm ruining my life
I'm reaching my end limit
My heart is in pain
Cause I'm crushing my soul and spirit
I keep living these lies
And making the same mistakes
I just want it all to stop
I don't know how much more I can take
(26/5/11)
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem