I Stayed On And On. Poem by Kolep Lop

More defense
Survival of the fittest
Surviving to not die
Surviving hunger.

And survived
Survival with loneliness
Surviving with anger
Surviving on mistakes

Still do
Enduring to always be blamed
Surviving depression
Still holding on, until the worst is passed

I've tried and always failed, in many ways to fail again and again
And what's more fucked up is everyone thinks stupid about me
I thought trying something new in earnest was a good thing
Unfortunately, everyone does not know what is in another person's heart, or what is in his own heart

I've had to devote a lot of time to a lot of people,
Let them know what I've been through, the stubbornness of the heart, the tiredness of the heart, the body I've forced so much
Really I am ashamed if I give up
And a shame to have to be killed by him

I tried so hard, so far
I must have fallen, and lost everything
But in the end, time in life is wasted.

Sometimes a hard fight doesn't all pay off