I Tried Poem by Melissa Joy Chesky

I tried to hold
Back these tears;
The tears that are
Threatening to fall.

I tried to cover
My emotions;
The emotions that
Are growing strong
As I grow weak.

I tried to act
Strong and brave;
The fake strong
That isn't there
Anymore.

I tried to put on
A fake smile;
Pretending to be
Alright.

I tried to fit in,
To blend in;
Blend in with all
Of these fakes.

I tried not to
Look so bad;
At least look as
Bad as this.

I tried to keep my
Head up high;
Not trying to look at
My shoes clapping
The floor.

I tried not to
Cower in a corner;
My feelings and
Emotions flooding
My mind,
Infecting what I do.

I tried not to
Yell in pain;
Scream out
Loud while
Being beaten.

I tried not to
Show my pain;
The pain searing
Through my body,
Coursing through
My veins like
Lava.

I tried not to
Let your words
Get the best of me;
Looking in
The mirror judgementally
At myself.

But they did,
They did.