I Tryed, And I Still Am Poem by Noah Ort

i want to scream the thoughts of my mind,
i want to take my hand and smear them all along the wall for everyone to see
but i cannot do such a thing,
for peoples minds are not invulnerable to such things
i am lost as to what i am thinking
i know yet my path is unguided,
the silent whisper in my ear
is the exact same one i cannot hear
i asked the big guy in the sky
but he did not answer my cry
i think i may know but im so unsure if i do
oh my god, this confusion,
this blanket of knowledge is covering my eyes
this blanket of knownledge makes me blind
God! ! i hate this, i am speaking to you, i am, i am
just tell me one way or the other
i want my way, and i also want your way
just tell me if they contradict
i tryed to random my way out of my loneley ness, it didnt work
i tryed to forget about it, i forget about forgetting and then i remembered
i tryed to take my hand and cut off my lips, so maybe that i would not speak vainly
i tryed, i tryed................................