I'Ve Built Walls.... Poem by Shannon Nicole

I can't explain much of anything,
I'm not good with words and I'm not good with actions.
I don't speak up for myself,
When I need to get off the bus or when I need to get to class.
I hide behind smiles and simple little laughs,
Just so people don't wonder what's really going on in my mind.
So, he just had to come along and right into my life,
And ask me what I was thinking about.
I've only opened up to three people but not even my mother,
Because I was always afraid that people would go away because I thought they might.
This one boy, making my stomach fill with those stupid butterflies,
Wonders why I'm looking away and not answering his questions.
I tell him it's nothing,
Am I trying to convince him or myself?
The life I seem to be living is really great,
But there's some cracks, some flaws, in this girl you see.
She doesn't look people in the eye,
Because she is afraid of what she might see.
She hides behind her sarcastic ways,
Because she doesn't want anyone to see the real her..
This girl was lying down with that boy one day,
And she wanted to tell him everything that was bothering her,
But she was afraid he'd push her away.
So, she stays within her built up walls,
Just waiting for him to break it down.