I Wish... Poem by Jef L33

Fighting my demons night after night
On the battlefields of broken dreams
I want her so much I want to scream and shout
But I know it was never meant to be

I look back and imagine, all the chances that came before
And pretend that if I had done things differently
We might have become more, then what we are now
But I know it isn't true, but I still can't help but wish

I wish, I wish, I wish over and over in my mind
That she loved me, that she needed me as much as I want her
But I know I'm lying to myself,
I know she doesn't look at me like that
But I can't help, but wish and wish and wish.

The bed feels hot,
the sheets are tossed,
the blanket dangles onto the floor

Another night turns into day,
another night lost thinking of her
I want her so much,
I whisper her name pretending she can hear me
But I know she isn't there
I know she can't hear me
I know she doesn't care