I Wish I Knew Poem by Eva Clara Harahap

I wish I knew....

It is love that you've been trying to show...

I will never turn my sight of you...

I'll make friend even with of all your demons...

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If the world is perfect...

All the risk, I will strongly take...

No such thing as a mistake...

And all i want now is having you back....

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Just you, nothing else....

I have learnt to live half a life....

Sleeping with onlyyour shadow as my dream...

It is like living with an open scar...

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Many times I cannot stand you...

You broke my heart for so many times...

You destroy all my beliefs in love....

You make me lost the love I love the most....

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I have been trying to leave you...

Shut the door forever....

Turn off the phone all the time....

But something keep on holding me back...

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It is the sight of you, waiting for me....

To understand a different kind of love....

To accept the love that could never come true....

To live with the love that can never be mine....

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I wish I knew.....

I would never said those thing to you....

I wish I knew...

I would never slam the door in front of you....

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Your intention is to break my heart....

You really meant everything you did to me....

You literally let me die in loving you....

I never understand why you did that....

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You broke my heart to let love to come in.....

You left a crack in my heart to let me understand....

It is when my heart is open to love....

I am healed and I am loved....

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Right now, you've gone from my world...

I am running again with different scars....

It is like screaming with my lips closed...

I wish you knew, how much I regret it....

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Copyright @ Eva Clara Harahap'Dec 2011

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With So Much Love And Respect,

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Eva Clara Harahap

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PS. For someone that heals me....Thank You!

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