I Wish I Were Better Poem by Silence Dogood

I wish i could say im better.
That im not sad anymore.
That smiling is easy now.
That I'm different from before.

But if I said that I'd be lying.
Because I'm still not okay.
I've gotten better yes.
But it's a battle through each day.

I haven't cut in a long time.
But that doesn't matter much.
The want and need still remains.
With every hurtful touch.

But i know it'll never happen.
i've worked to hard for this.
Im not just going to give up.
Too much of life Ive missed.

And besides, things are different now.
I've changed a part of myself.
the part that was weak and scared.
And i made it someone else.

Someone that is stronger.
Who'll make sure I dont fall apart.
Because ive been the weakling.
From before the very start.

And now I will not crumble.
Like a building made of straw.
Every battle will be fought.
Either win lose or draw.

But even though Ive changed this.
Im not an impentrable force.
I hurt I cry and I still break.
And no one feels remorse.

I'd like to say I'm better.
That I walk with head held high.
but to say that would be lying.
And I cannot tell a lie.