I Wonder... Poem by Shannon Monroe

I wonder what life would be like if I were something else.
I wonder what I would be and what I would do.
Would I be a dog and be faithful to my owners or would I be neglected
and abused such as when I was a child?
Would I be an owl that only comes out at night and be very
isolative and alone?
Would I be a wolf or a coyote that stays with the pack
or would I be a lone wolf who goes and does everything independently?
Would I be a rat that steals food and eat human remains?
Would I be a cat who hates everything and everybody who touches me?
Would I be a vampire with everlasting life and who never ages or dies?
Or would I be a normal girl inside of a crazed-out world and very sad
and depressed because of flashbacks and who has been in and out
of group homes, residential facilities, and foster homes?
Who has absolutely no friends or family members surrounding me?
Yes, I shall be that yes I shall be myself and be positive.
Yes I shall be cool, calm, and collected.
Yes, I shall be isolative and depressed.
Yes, I shall be a lone wolf who does everything independently.
Yes, I shall be the one who takes care of herself, who will always believe
in herself, even if nobody believes in her.
Yes, I shall be a young woman of faith and love.
Yes, I shall be a positive outgoing young lady who always holds herself
in a high manner.
Yes, I shall be successful and happy with my place.
But who will ever believe in a child who only wonders and daydream
about how her life should be?
I wonder…..