I Wont Say It Poem by Patricia Ruiz

I really thought it and was even bout to say
"I really freakin HATE him" instead imma pray
I remember that's a word I'm not suppost to say
that's a word that I dont mean anyway
I'm not gonna include it in my vocab ulary
I'm just gonna refrain myself and not say
the things that I wanna say
that way of talking, that's the old way
and I stand here as a different ME today
games you've created I've decided not to play
I dont know how to, so therefore i wont play
I'm not gonna just sit here with you wasting time away
i refuse to sit with you as time wastesaway
there are far more better things I'd rather do with my day
I really dont enjoy looking at you anyway
the gestures you make and the things you say
dont appeal to me at all, no how, no way
conversation is weak so there is nothing to say
centsless to speak nothing makes cents so nothing to say
I'd rather bust out a bible and read or sit here alone and pray
than to have to sit here with you just to waste time away
the things on your mind every minute of every day
is not what's on mine anymore I dont think that way
the games you work so hard to play
the lies and stupid remarks you say
the excuses you give day after day
I finally accept the fact that things are this way
I'm willing to without looking back walk the freak away
cause seriously tho
the things that have faded and gone away
arent coming back, wonttomorrow if they didnt today
I've got to get this whole thing over with I say
please take this serious all these words that I say
cause one day I wont be here to repeat all the things that I say
I wont be surprised to hear one day
that you forget them anyway
and on that day I'll have nothing to say
I'd just look at you and walk away
Forget that foo! ! ! ! to myself I will say
Forget you and forget what you say
hurt that I had to push you away
hurt because......I still love you anyway