I Would Cover You! Poem by Lana Wesley

The whites fog covered all around. When I stretch out my
arm I can't see my fingers. Everything is blind,
I am blind but I can see you! Brightest light on my way
or deepest darkness, I can see you! I am cold
inside, I don't feel any pain but I feel you!
I feel you and your pain is the worse feeling
I have even experienced! It opened wound in me
that won't heal but I don't want it to go away.
I won't let it be back to you! I'll keep it.
I will keep it mine forever if I must.
I know I have the power in me to help you feel better.
I know I have it, I just don't know how to use it.
I write and my hands are shaking, my whole body
crying for help because my mind has left it to
fight alone. I am parted now and don't know where
are all my pieces. I don't know how many of those
but I know that I need them all. You need them all.
Please forgive me for my weakness!
I want to be strong for you. I want to be a shield for you.
I want to cover you from the bad world, so you will feel
safe forever. Won't be afraid to feel happy,
to breath with the whole chest, to rise hand to the moon and to love.
I know I can make it. But I am far away from perfect.
My own demons which I have many are tearing me apart.
Something in me fights with them, something surrenders.
I don't know their names, I no longer know mine.
I have lost control never having one. If the fight ends with death,
with death of our dreams or with my own, please remember for as long as
you can that I would cover you with me. I would cover you!