I'd Rather Be Poem by Ellen Rose Guilaran

I'd rather be alone in this miserable lonely
Than to seek a company that is not you
I'd rather be going home alone journey
Than be with any man that is not you

There is nothing more greater yearning
than one that hasn't been given
Similarly, there is nothing that I desire
more than held those hands of yours

I'd rather be alone in my bed feeling uncomfortable
Than to face you being miserable
1. Although loneliness is my enemy, it
does not kill me

I'd rather be wallowing in my emotions and
contemplation
Than to reach for material that serves no value only
temptation

I love things that are beautiful
Outsides are amazing
But insides are greater
And actions speak louder

Yours truly, will know pain and love
Will bleed and drove
Thyself to the edge of pain and glory
For you are the prize I'd cheat to win

I've been chasing shiny empty trophies all along
Attracted to its shimmering gold and hollow
Prove to me you are not stone
But a gem to keep forever

All else fades and nothing compares to you
All tries to emulate what's more of you
I'm selfish I should've stood ground and kept you
I won't lock you in the underground anymore,
but I'm sure as hell not sharing you

I don't want you to choose but I'll let you think it through
It would hurt and get me, and I'll just get through
But don't take too long because I will wait for you forever
Though you keep an important space, it doesn't mean you have to make it reserved for you forever

I am not a bank deposit, but I'm sure as hell your memories there would change
And truth be told, I'd be lying if I say I wouldn't hold on
There it keeps one of the happiest I've ever been

Maybe it's delusion that's keeping me alive
But I'm just trying to get by and survive
I don't feel like living or dying but I am responsible at all
I live by the moment not fearing the future or tomorrow

But it's all to change;
I'll try to balance
And live in the present
While looking forward to tomorrow

Because there is none greater bliss
Than being given what you need
And what you want
And also because its meant to be