If Only... Poem by Eman Awad

If only the crowd part away,
if only these voices stop the scream.
Then you must know i'll come to stay,
i will be the realise of your dream.
We've lived in two worlds apart,
but yet our weary words have met.
And yet i heard your silent heart,
that memory i will never forget.
Some other girl would try to mend,
she would try to operate, fix and deal.
But maybe you got the message i send,
love is much more than some thing to feel.
I won't operate when my hands,
are shaking, scared of hurting you more.
Touch my heart, it understands,
it'll say, you're our passion, we adore.
I can't operate knowing i may cause a scar,
and i now the scar takes forever to heal.
And yet leaves a mark, clear yet so far,
i'm not that loving, i'm not ready to deal.

If only i won the world,
if only i got your smile.
Maybe i'll create a new world,
till then all of the above isn't my style.
My dreams scare me some times,
i get lost in my place and i'm so tired.
My poems have weird rhymes,
it's like i'm passed validation, expired.
I saw forever in your eyes,
i looked away and gazed back at you.
I can tell, love from lies,
i confess, my search got through.
It's a long way and voices are loud,
i want to be with you but a lot to be done.
I want to fall in love but i'm not allowed,
and i can't make you promise not to be gone.
Let me love you from a distance,
leave the worrying to me and just laugh.
Just let me worry about my existence,
let me worry, cry, die for your behalf.

If only i didn't have a heart....