In My Old Self, A New Me I Found Poem by Kangkona Deka

There is a certain sense of calm these days,
Because I am no longer part of the run in so many ways.
Like a child who doesn't bother who loves and hate..
I don't care anymore if you consider me a friend or not, my dear mate..
I ran so fast and kept running for a while,
With a baggage of stress and worry; found no reason to smile
Yet I thought I should keep going to keep up with the race..
You like it or not, it is the trend these days.
I didn't mind being the rat running mindlessly..
The problem is I wasn't happy and did so hopelessly.
People will have a lot to say about what is right for you,
But the true validation is when you know you are happy along with a very few..
I know it's about time, I took a pause to look inside..
To apologise to myself because so much I tried to hide..
Hide who I am to fit in this world of deceit and lie,
To say okay, when it wasn't and when things were wrong to never ask why?
But the questions I had were for me to answer..
It wasn't about blaming anyone or putting it on him or her..
We all have choices and I made mine,
There was never a reason to cry and whine..
I took responsibility to walk out with grace this time..
From situations and people who would not let me shine..
I decided to make myself a priority this time around..
And after a long time, in my old self.. a new Me I found..

- Kangkona Deka