Inconsistency Poem by Aya Takahashi

I easily get inspired but I easily get down.
I'm so sensitive with my feelings but insensitive with others.
I'm strong outside but fragile inside.
I'm always trying but still failing.
I'm always climbing but always falling.
Always smiling but deep inside my heart is breaking.
I am me but no one can appreciate me.
I feel like I'm belong but honestly I'm not.
My mind says 'Be on the Top! ' but I'm always at the bottom.
Why I can't understand life?
The more I want to understand it, the more I get confuse.