As the dark became my home
I didn’t miss the light
as much as
I missed the shadows
Shadows give us direction
A way to find the light
In the dark there is no direction
Nowhere to go
Nothing to leave behind
Lost in a bit of time
Where time doesn’t move
Not forward - Not backward
Nothing passes - nothing changes
Stuck, not in the eternal now
But the eternal never
Not a wish, denied by time
But a wish, stillborn
A dead heart can’t hurt
It also can’t wish
Pain would give me hope
Like grass breaking stone
It’s not that love has ended
Or love has left me ‘lone
I have lost the faith to feel
that love is real
And the agony I remember
Is nothing that can heal
Don’t light me any candles
For it would hurt my eyes
Don’t tell me any promises
For I would count them lies
Don’t try to be my friend
For friends I have no more
The world where I could love
Has died so long ago
So I make my home in darkness
With my companion called despair
For what I felt and suffered
Was more than I could bear
So let darkness be my blanket
Coldness soothe my burning sore
For never can I be again
Who I was before
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem