Is This My Unrequited Love? Poem by Jessica Cabang

'Complicated Love'

I once wonder, when or who to fall in love,
then you caught my attention, such a goddess to have,
we're awkward strangers, yet I found the might,
to approach you, bathing my days in light.

it started with a compliment that break through the ice,
you were grateful and smiled at me so nice,
only in a short time, i understand you more than anyone could,
you, yapping nonstop and here I am listening with a good mood.

We started as friends, you share some things waiting to be understood,
reassuring you that if no one understands you, I would,
everything was fine, right? with exchange messages that got me smiling with no void,
but then you avoided me, here I am overthinking what did I do to get you annoyed.

I was left confused for a long time, then everything comes in pieces,
you avoided me for a reason, and can't get to talk to you as I pleases,
our relationship started to progress, you show me motives that kept me awake at night,
assuming something is developing, but I'll wait for your green-go light.

Your cousin began to suspect if there's anything going on between us,
I cleared the misunderstanding and said there's no need to fuss,
one day, I got the courage to confess my true feelings for you,
I waited for your response, overthinking if you might give me a queue.

Your rejections sting, a bitter blow,
yet still my genuine heart, refusing to let go,
I honored your choice, as we continue to be friends,
I prayed a lot, wishing these feelings would come to an end.

But our peace was fleeting, like a fragile thing,
your sudden silence that painfully stings,
blocked and avoided, a mystery left untold,
our friendship shattered, cold and holed.

Again, the confusion, a tangled thread of pain,
my messages were left unanswered, only thing I could attain,
I stepped away, to heal and mend,
yet I'm worried still for you, until the very end.

At school, our glances, a secret shared,
friendly ties I guess, a burden I've dared,
to set aside, though butterflies still fly,
learning to let go, beneath the sky.