It Was His Choice But We Should've Helped More Poem by Anna Pine

how dare you say that i didn't try hard enough
how could you throw the words at me that if only i was around more... the 'if only' will never fix this

don't you think that if i had the power to go back and save him from himself- i would. I'd trade my life for his every day. if i could save his soul from this messy, fragmented world,
if i could i'd do it in a heartbeat. he could have my every heartbeat

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please don't put this on me
he was hurting too much inside and he had to go
he made this choice and it wasn't right but... we can't fix this now

don't push me to hurting that much too- we all should've noticed- don't blame me for him being gone. i blame myself too but it won't help. instead lets talk and be sure that we won't follow the path he took

don't force me down that road too


I know it hurts. im sorry.