It Was Only Yesterday When I Said I Want Your Body Poem by RIC BASTASA

yesterday i may have been high with my
testosterone
i wanted your body to satisfy me
i was so hard on
myself demanding what may kill me
at the end,
but then i jacked off
then i turned weak and flaccid in my thoughts
the heat is over
and time to cool off from our senselessness
and hard

headedness our unreasonableness to the demands of the hard
flesh,

now i sit calm like a lotus pure around this mud
i take back my mind
i put my senses intact

i still need your love, your mind, your care, your thoughts,
and your body to just sit beside me

i do not have even the courage to touch you.