Its Been Four Months Now Poem by Vangile Mtyali

It's been four months since you walked out that door
I still remember it as if it was four seconds ago
Its been four months now
Its was two...
we dated for two months
But the heartache was double
The time we have been together
Its been four months now
Four months of torture and hell
Four months of oceans of tears
Four months of unanswered questions
Four months of regrets
Four months of longing
Four months of what ifs
Four months wishes
Four months anger and pain
Four months of confusion
Four months of broken promises
Broken images
Broken dreams
Its been four months now
Since I last saw your beautiful smile
Since I last saw your beautiful eyes
Since my lips last touch your lips
Since I last held you in my arms
Since I last spoke to you
Its been four months now
Since I lost my best friend
My lover
My mentor
My inspiration
My better half
Its been four months now
Four months Of acceptance
Acceptance that you gone and never coming back for me
Four months Of making peace with what happened
Four months of letting go
Its been four months now
And it gets easier
And I'm going stronger by the day
Its been four months now
And I'm learning to fall madly in love with me again
I'm learning to dance in the rain
I'm learning to see my beauty again
I'm learning mend my broken heart
I'm learning to sing my own song
I'm learning to forgive you
Learning to forgive myself
Its been four months now
And I'm finding and loving myself
After loving you with all of me
Its been four months now

Vangile Mtyali