Just Because Poem by Nothing boy

As I sit here with my booze and thoughts I bask in the misery that is loneliness, weighted to my seat growing heaver with each shot. Thoughts of old and new loves flash though my mind. Tears begin to roll down my cheeks as I realize that I am truly alone. The drawer across the room calls my name, a peacemaker is held tightly with in. Peace of mind and an end to my self loathing. Bringing the bottle to my lips will make my decision quick, as I guzzle every last drop. My sober mind tells me this is wrong, but it is too late the booze has taken over. I drag myself to the drawer vision blurred by the tears. I grab the peace maker and place it slowly to my head, thoughts running of what could be and could have been. My body becomes loose as I start my dark decent to the floor...my dead eyes fixed on the picture fame of you and me.