Letter To My Mother (An Apology.) Poem by Emily Madden

A letter to Mother.

Mum, (I'm Sorry.)

I know It was hard. Hearing your daughter say, ‘I wish I was dead.'

Hearing her cry from the voices in her head.(I'm Sorry.)

Mum, I know it was scary, that warm summers evening

Taking her to hospital after the police had been intervening.

She was scared too.

The voices in her head - they never repent

That's why she's on pills everyday - kind of like advent.

Mum, I'm sorry. You know this is me - it's just, you see,

Talking in third person is easier for me.

When I was younger, I'm honest, no lie

I really couldn't see a reason not to die.

I had all these issues, I was bullied, always alone

No one to turn to - my confidence was blown.

But then these friends turned up - you remember them, don't you?
Alex and Jack and the girl too.

They made me feel wanted, loved and ecstatic

How was I to know they'd been created in my head - my attic?

I'm Sorry.

I'm Better now - I swear

I feel like i'm breathing a brand new air.

I couldn't have done it without you, My mother

You never made me feel like I was a bother.

I love you mum, always have, always will -

Thankyou for being one of the reasons
that I am no longer ill.