Lonely Poem by Danny Speicher

Here in the darkness I sit and think
Upon times past on those yet to be
And wondering where do I go from here
It is so painful just to wait and see

I watch the dying of my closest friends
As tehy fight to survive, they die to me
I fight and I struggle to keep them near
But, who can fault a friend trying to be free?

And all the wise sages who once taught me
Are active in their teaching, even still
Yet, their lessons teach generations next
And, this transition, indeed, is God's will

Family I love and have loved so long
Even they oft misunderstand my words
Though I try to tell of the dreams I see
My voice, inadvertently, goes unheard

I try hard to pray to God, whom I know
And meditate and listen for His voice
But, often I go deaf from the silence
And relieving slumber becomes my choice

For in my best dreams I dream of the past
Of family, friends and sages of old
Still laughing and talking with each other
And my heart doesn't seem so sad, so cold

And, in my dreams, I see her face... smiling
Who she is? I do not know her by name
And when I awake I forget her face
But, oh, how my heart loves her just the same

But, rise, I do and find myself alone
Still wanting to be dreaming of love
Still dreaming of the past and of her face
But, awake I am, and lonely thereof

((May 23rd,2005))