Lonesome Poem by Anna Pine

what is lonely
its not being alone because i am not alone but i still feel lonely

am i happy like this? many acquaintances and lots of friends but none who are there for the long haul.
will i ever find someone who has my back? someone who sticks around when i'm no longer smiles and sunshine

so far- it seems like no

i tell myself 'i don't need a best friend
ill be fine, just a tad lonely' its a lie

i know i need another who on days when getting up seems to hard that they'll bring me tea and let me just cry and they'll whisper 'its ok, i'm here, it was just a nightmare'
i keep trusting and looking