Long Love Lost? ? Poem by Melissa Coventry

In the time that I have known you,
In the time I have been your lass,
Counting all the times you said you love me,
Why do I feel lost?
How come when I with you, I tend to push away,
And when your not here I love you but feel safe?
Seeing a future comes easily with you by my side,
Yet the happiness I seek for,
I can’t find in your eyes.
In my dreams I have nightmares,
Of you holding me down,
Caught like a butterfly,
A mans prize, a perfect wife.
So why am I still here?
Even when I feel scared,
I detest your kisses but I can’t fight back,
In a woman’s madness of my tortured heart,
Is this just a case of long love lost?