Looking Down Poem by Carla Nestoros

As i stand i look down
But i can't lift my head
It's started inside and come out
As my eyes start burning red

My veins start to fill with anger
But i resist the hit
I screw my hands up tightly
So no other hand can fit

My neck is stiff, It won't click
So i can't look around
But after that my knees go weak
That's when i hit the ground

After i cry my eyes sting
As if my tears are bleach
They're raw and i can't change it
The pains too far to reach

In a trance i look up
Can't believe what i've become
Can't believe the life i lead
And all the things they've done

My hands become claws
As i grip and pull my hair
It's like my thoughts are pulled out
So i don't have to share

I feel this all every second
And they all throw their knives
Not purposely, they hurt me
As they go about their lives

I realise the blood all over me
Then i know my heart has bled
I realise i'm still looking down
And still can't lift my head