Lost In Anger =/ Poem by Joseph Richard

Is my life complete? Or is it half full with anger and defeat, Or is it half empty from living on hopes and dreams. I wish i could change my feelings rather than let them all out. Fear of whats next; I shut my mouth. But the pain grows stronger while my actions speak out. No need for words you can see it in my eyes, blood shot veins, tears run wild. Snap! hear I go again, Its been 1 year 6 months since I last felt this pain. Why now? Why me? Why do these little things bother me? After three years I have not put to past my insecurity's?
So I snap some more not realizing the pain I cause, Pushing you away for no reason at all.
The room Gets quiet, no person in site. I crawl in a hisball. We had a fight. Locked in my room my thoughts run wild, Pale face white knuckles, cant bare to smile. T is on another level now and i don't know what to do. I messed up and now i think i lost you.