Lost In Him Poem by Heather Colton

I lost myself in him, I felt like i had no way out. I cried and screamed; everyone could hear me, except for me. I needed out but I was being sucked back into a vicious cycle that was never going to end. People close to me tried to warn me. They pulled me in every different direction to try and pull me free, but it was useless; I was already caught. It seemed to me the only way to save myself was to let myself be captured. Be held hostage in my own body; my own mind. It seemed like the only way.. I thought I was as free as a bird, flying around in the open sky. But the truth is I wasnt free, I was trapped; like a bird in a cage. No where to go, I just had to sit and watch what was happening around me. Feeling like there is nothing I can do to stop anything. I was helpless; a prisoner in my own life, body, mind, and soul. In the end it left me with a broken heart; crying and screaming from the pain. It felt like a dagger had been dragged across my heart. Honestly I am left with no one to blame but myself, I had caused myself all this pain. I let him take complete control of me, I deliberately lost myself. I dont beleive he knew what he was doing to me.. I didn't even know what he was doing to me.. </3