Love? ? Poem by Sarah Gabriel

I learned the hard way that love doesnt exist
I look at men and simply get pissed
Boyfriends Boyfriends promise forever
I smile and nod knowing that its never

To trust a man with my heart
Would tear my world all apart
Maybe one day I shall see
What every woman says he'll be

You may think that I've been hurt
That some male made me feel like dirt
But for me this simply is not true
No male has ever made me feel blue

It all starts with a loving dad
Now just a father that has turned bad
You might think it's just a game
But these two names are not that same

To have a dad is just a dream
For that world busted at the seam
I thought I'd never trust a man
But there's this one and I'm his fan

I fight myself to make it stop
I feel it climbing to the top
An emotion that i shouldnt feel
For i know it cant be real

Should i let him try to prove
himself to me or should i move
on with life? It seems so hard
What to play for my next card

I cant help but be confused
Alot for a heart thats been misused
What makes him different, I want to know
What if it's all just for show?

They're bad AND good at this I'm sure
For me to trust, is he the cure?
You might think of me as meek
But in no way am i weak

Raising me and sister too
is a fate that's indeed cruel
but that seemed to be my fate
I laugh as I bust through that gate

At lots of things i seem to fail
especially when it comes to males.
It actually is not all that sick
I think that I'm in love with Nick.