Love Or Madness Poem by Jennifer Batch

Blinded by what was perceived as kindness
Entangled in a spun web, is it love or is it madness?
Knowing something isn't right, unable to determine my plight
My mind is numb, too numb to think, too numb to function
My body aches, so tired, too tired to function
Too tired to fight against invisible chains of bondage
I've spent my life afraid to dream, afraid to try, too scared to fly
I've lived for you and your desires to earn your love
The more I try the more I fail, I've fallen into a pit of deep despair
Sinking ever deeper, reaching for an anchor, grasping for salvation
Life is fading, bleeding out, like the once vibrant color in a photo full of smiles
Smiles that others saw as blissfulness, joy and happiness
Once content to play the pawn, to be kept under rule of thumb
No longer willing to play the victim controlled with sweet deception
Perhaps too late to realize what an entangled web for me was spun
For even in the realization my minds confusion betters me
Unable to detect through hazy manipulating sweetness
Is it love or is it madness?