Loved Me Too Much Poem by b.. rich

you said you had to leave me
for you loved me too much
too much to wait between visits
spending all i had just to see you
one weekend at a time

you feared i would leave you
you told me i would be chasing
other here in town
even after i told you thats not who i am

you feared i would leave you for a man
when i told i dont swing that path
sorry it happened to you in the past
we are not all those men that screwed you over

all my attention was focused on you
my mind my soul my heart entangled with your being
just the thought of you made me gid

leaving your place after visits was always the hardest
wrestling the urge to just say forget the world and
start new in your glow, needing to finish out the year
so that i could have a clean break from
my jobs my leases

yet as i drove 25 min away you called tears in breath
you could not would not be with the idea of me no longer
i was not their enough for you not giving enough
yet it was all i had my time my attention my art my heart

you said you had to stop for you had been hurt before
that i would leave you and you would not have it
so you left me first, i never wanted either to happen,
so we took some time just to be friends

friendship and us moving in and out pendulum swinging
towards and way and then for some reason me being me
disgusted you u pushed and cut me off
no answers to text no answers to pics no answers to emails
nothing nothing for a week
a voided silence from the one i had thought i was connected

now your gone and now im alone
left to wonder in sorrow
though happy in the saddest way to have finally meet you
ich liebst du forever even though you no longer care