Lover's Despair Poem by Grace Green

This truth is a lie
It is the face of false
It has this hollowness
it does not exist.

This world goes round
and there isn't a hole in it...
then how can i fall
how can i die
Moments that are beautiful
How can they be tainted
How can they be washed away
How can love disappear
and angels are smiling upon in
the skies
How can time stop
this is superfluous
Deep is God
and so this is not God...
God don't let me alone, then
how is this possible?
There are stars in your eyes
and you have a heart within
your chest, but
How can you be a statue?
How can you not move?
How can you smile and kill me?
How can you leave me?

I am God's child
and i dwell on His Land
How can you make me invisible?
I am made of mud
I am alive
You can break me into pieces
but still my scattered self will shine
He will smile upon me
What difference does my dress make to you?
Nothing?
I am nude.... have no clothes on me
Can your ears hear something?
Can they hear my squeals of sorrow
Can they hear the sound
my tears make when they fall down
Can you listen to music?
If you do...you meet God.
I am here and am I not here
for you or you there for me?
Then why has God made us?
Why am i sitting here and
weeping over you...
You are attached to me
and if you try to tear yourself
apart from me,
I will be deformed, and maybe
some part of me will be
with you forever, and one
day I will bleed to death

You hold energy within yourself
and I am attracted to that...
And I feel I derive mine from you.
Your statements slap me on the floor
and I lie there defeated
Your words torture my inside
and sometimes they heal
You are someone
and hasn't God made me for someone?
Yes He has!
Now how will you transform yourself into
someone else so that i can love him?
But you are G……..
and who else could you be?
Your name I've taken with
emotions of shades that forms
the beautiful sunset
Because of your memory,
Sun always rises in my heart
How will you extinguish this sun?
Will you drown it in the
river of my tears?
But then you will
drown yourself in me
And still you will be in me...