May 8th 2000 Poem by Daniel Martin1976

I sit alone another day come and gone away.
Today was different, today use to be special.
As the dark of night consumes everything I see it eventually covers me.
I exhale, and look to the ground.

A sadness comes over me, a feeling I know too well.
On this earth I know it's a type of hell.
'What the F@#$' i say
I don't understand what I did that I deserve this world of GRAY.
I travel with a smile, even if it's fake.
I've been dredged throughout the mud of my life.
Never taking more than my share.
Always looking at every desperate situation with a positive hope.
Always told it will get better.
I exhale......

Why is everything I want an uphill battle?
Just once why couldn't something work out the way I want it to.
It's as if I'm being punished over and over.
I was told by someone that they are lost.
I understand what they mean. I have been lost for so long I don't know what it means to be found.
I am no longer afraid of death.
To be honest I welcome it like a lost friend.
Lost is only the beginning of my torment.
I am alone in a world full of people. My heart not touched. My world dark.
HELLO my sad friend I call Thy Grey
All i can do is exhale.
If God had mercy he would stop my inhale.