Me... Poem by Rasika Kalyanikar

I had an urge to look back today..
I did..and I wonder how far have I traveled?
Alas! ! I have come too far from my safe haven!
Maybe I must go back...maybe I should not..
I fear I will go astray if I try...
So I have decided to go ahead..
Few remnants of my tattered innocence I carry..
Few well digested morsels of lessons given by my slips...
A handful of good memories and some bitter regrets...
Few pieces of long gone sincerity...
I had buried it all deep within me somewhere..
For I stumble on my way when few memories resurface..
I loose my way..my direction and drown in the infinity of questions..
A big lump then rises in my already parched throat...
And a teardropp captivated in the cages of my eyelashes
manage to escape..
And my eyelids never rise up..
Keeping an sinless teardropp imprisoned for so long,
guilty they feel....
I hope for it to rain....
Will that little miracle of God wash away a few sins of mine? ?
Hoping to get back at least fraction of my lost innocence...some sincerity...
A pure friend I narrated a few pieces today..after eons...
Words just kept flowing...
I had a belief of begetting a silent understanding..
I hope the purity of friendship wont let me down...
I hope my transgressions will never mar it...
Of course I can only hope..only try to have faith...