Me Poem by Taylor Ingram

As my tears fall,
So does the blood on my thighs,
I cant stop this,
Im flickering the blade around in my fingers,
Holding my head up high,
The tears rolling down my face,
So much pain in the air,
I clear my throat,
I can see fear in my eyes,
I can feel it in my fingers,
I can feel it in every bone in my body,
I just lay there,
Lifeless,
If i shall die tonight,
Lets raise a glass, For the last time,
For this blade has never looked so soft,
No more sun, No more dreams, Whats life if you cant dream?
I tell people Im tired,
But im actually depressed,
I tell people ill be fine tomorrow,
But i know, Tomorrow will be worst,
Im losing my mind, and the sad thing is, i know it,
Im slowly giving in to the demon inside my head,
Every cut, Every slice, its just getting stronger,
The urge.
They're getting deeper,
To be honest,
I just want to slice up my whole body,
I just want to be free from this on-going nightmare,
I dont know how i got here in the first place,
I cant even remember what its like to be happy anymore,
When my eyes aren't sore from crying,
Or where i dont have to cover up who i am,
I want to feel normal again.