Mindset Mania Poem by anonymous shhhh

My life is spinning out of reach
What goes on in my mind, I could not teach
I hear you, but not what you preach
Balanced is something I'm not
Trying to figure out life but simply can't connect a single dot
My head is foggy; thinking is unclear
Can somebody please help me out here?
I wake up to go down, its stability that I've never found
Emotions that too frequently change climate
A mind on autopilot going in a direction where no one will ever find it
Contemplating whether or not
All these negative feelings are all I've got
This hating is what keeps me alive
As if I have any drive, a twisted mind is what makes me survive
Trying to overpower thoughts in my head
That are nothing but sour
Address them during not one of my finest hours
Look into your eyes and cant decide
If what's coming out is real or if it's all just lies
Like there's a padlock on my heart
And my mind got a head start in the race to see who first can make me fall apart
Feeling out of control
Where are you mom, isn't this your role?
These people act like I'm not trying
When really it's them that aren't complying
No one wants to hear me; all they care about is how I appear written
There's so much silence around me, so why won't anyone listen
I'm sick of being studied; this isn't a mind quiz
Hold on, I could help you understand, but first you have to excuse me while I try to find where my mind is