Misunderstood Poem by Yvette Flores

For some time, i've felt like i dont have a family
They dont understand me, and barely understand who i am
I stick out like a sore thumb
I dont have any serious problems
Im not mentally retarded
I dont have health problems
Although im the oldest, i dont get a whole lot of attention
In fact, i never have
My dad messed up his life
He got caught drug dealing a lot
Finally, he was thrown across the border
My mom has two other kids to worry about, other than me
She's only said that she's proud of me once, and only that time did she ever mean it
Im the child that gets in trouble the most
Wheather its for failing a class, not cleaning, or not listening
Whatever it may be, my mom gets onto me for it
Out of all this...
You get a girl who's about to turn 15 and has attempted suicide more than 3 times
If you want proof, look at my left arm...
I have the scars to prove it
I wish my parents would pay more attention to me
Then they'd realize how much i hurt
Maybe my death thoughts would go away to...