Mixed Emotions Poem by Dashaun Rashod Snipes Mister

Mixed emotions swirl inside my soul
As I stand here at the altar, feeling quite droll
For I'm about to enter a union, unwilled
My heart and mind, both unfulfilled
It started as a simple charade
A match made by parents, a marriage trade
I played along, thinking it a game
But now, my heart is engulfed in shame
I look at you, my dear groom
And wonder if you too feel the gloom
For I see no joy, no love in your eyes
Just a man, fulfilling societal ties
My thoughts wander to the life ahead
A life with a stranger, my heart filled with dread
Will I ever learn to love and cherish
A man, whom I did not choose to perish?
There's a sense of suffocation, a lack of air
As I walk down the aisle, with a forced smile to wear
My heart screams, begging to be free
But society's expectations, bind me like a tree
The vows are exchanged, as tears threaten to spill
For I'm forced to surrender, against my will
I'm trapped in a cage, with no way out
A life sentence, with no room to doubt
I see the love in the eyes of our guests
But for me, it's a feeling that never rests
For I'm a prisoner, in this unwanted union
Where my heart aches, with each passing reunion
The days go by, the years roll on
But my heart remains cold, like a frozen pond
I try to make the best of what I have
But deep down, I know it's not a love I'll ever crave
There's a constant tug of war within
Between my duty and my heart's sin
For I am bound to a man, I do not desire
A fact that only fuels my inner fire
I long for the touch of a true lover
A warmth that goes beyond societal cover
But I'm stuck in a loveless marriage
An emotional turmoil, like a never-ending carriage
At times, I envy the birds, flying free
For they know not the burden of societal decree
But I'm a woman, bound by norms and rules
Trapped in a life, where my heart endlessly drools
The silence between us, speaks volumes
No words of love, just a heavy silence that looms
I search for a flicker of affection in your eyes
But all I see, is emptiness in disguise
As time passes by, my heart grows numb
A coping mechanism, to deal with what's to come
But every now and then, I let my walls crumble
And the tears flow, like a never-ending rumble
Mixed emotions fill my heart and mind
As I ponder on what I left behind
The life I could have had, the love I could have known
But now, it's all just a dream, forever blown
In the end, I've made peace with my fate
For it's a path, I cannot alter or recreate
But my heart still weeps, for the love that was never meant to be
Just a prisoner, in this unwanted marriage, longing to be free.


Authorship by: Mr. Dashaun Rashod Snipes
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