Monsoon Rains Poem by Sucheta Sarwan

You came to me as surprising as the first monsoon rains,
I did not realise I could have another aspect to my life until you.
In many sorts, you were my first.
Everything seemed brighter with you around,
And I hope everything is swell for you too.
But I realise you are not good for me,
You are poison for my aching heart,
And I realise nothing matters anymore.
Atleast it should be that way,
Although I know I will be myself again,
And you will be the first to notice,
I fell for you and now I know I should'nt have,
But I hope everything is swell with you.
I hope you achieve great things,
I will definitely cheer for you,
In my heart, not in my presence.
I realise I cant bring light to you when I'm the one burning,
I always hope everything is always swell with you.
I dont need another aching heart nor sympathy,
I need for you to be more human.
I need to realise that I dont need your contribution in my life.
I need to realise, I'm the only one hurting till now.
Atleast it feels so,
I need you to be more human,
I need you to stop feeling like the fragrance of citrus and lavender,
I need you to stop feeling like the color blue,
And I need to make my validation a priority again.
You will always be my first, of sorts;
And I always hope everything is swell with you.